Perfect Me

How much longer will my luck run in
Do I have a decade or a day left to begin
to perfect me
I can see where I need to be
because I'm not there yet
far from it

sometimes I think I want to burn the house down

to ashes

maybe the whole suburb

this city

take some dust to the sea

spread it reverently 

start from nothing again

another chance

one more go at this

do a better job

see the potholes, the pitfalls, the horrors

before they take a hold

and warp

the perfect me

that was